A week ago today I got a phone call that would change our world. Jeff's sweet father was in the hospital, and suddenly. No warning, no notice, no pain. We were up all night receiving phone calls of his worsening condition. That was an awful night. Tuesday morning he passed away, and Jeff was on an airplane to Utah.
I was frantically washing clothes, packing, cancelling Dr. appointments, writing excuse notes for my children to miss school, getting my car looked at, and preparing to drive to Utah on Wednesday and Thursday. That drive was bitter sweet. I know dad was watching out for us. Jeff wanted us to fly, but it felt irresponsible paying so much for last minute flights. We both agreed I would drive. The drive was trouble free, the roads were clear and not a drop of percepitation fell. That is a miracle considering all the passes between Seattle and Salt Lake in February! The sun was out and it felt like no one else was on the road. Every turn and bend I would take was another beautiful photography opportunity, and I kept thinking to dad, "Can you see this? Isn't it beautiful?" Then my next thought to him would be "Why?" I have been constantly talking to dad in my head since last Monday. My sister in law said to me, " That's ok, dad's a good listener."
Friday we had the funeral. Really? I have not had much time alone or to process these events. I don't really even want to post about it, because it's not real to me. But I am, because I want to record my thoughts and memories for my children. I think it is important to record our life's journeys by journaling and photography.
The funeral was beautiful, we were all dreading that day. No one wants to face the reality of a loss, and we were no different. Dad looked so peaceful, and it was wonderful to see him in his temple clothes. Jeff spoke, and I was so proud of him. He wrote and rewrote the talk 4 times. He was sure he would not be able to legibly speak those written words, he was so emotional. But somehow he did, and he was spot on about the gospel, the plan of salvation and his dad. We laughed, we cried and we felt peace. One memorable part of the talk told of how Gary would take them on unplanned vacations. He would detour off the main roads and take what he called,
" The Back Door." They have several fond memories of these trips. Spencer sang a solo, "Nearer My God to Thee." It was also beautiful. Spencer always comes through for us. He gave Jeff a blessing the morning of the funeral ; as a mother, that was something to witness. I was also blessed to witness Jeff give his mother and his baby sister a blessing that morning. We are so fortunate for the blessings of having worthy priesthood holders in our family. Everyone did an amazing job under the circumstances, and I even remember saying to someone, " Even if we had 6 months to plan it would not have been any better."
We did the long 13 hour drive home Sunday. We were in a hurry because we had to drive straight through without an overnight stay. Dad was also with us on that drive. Funny enough in Idaho the freeway ended up being completely closed down due to a load spill and we were rerouted through a small town. We took
"The Back Door." How can you not say Dad was somehow involved?
Now that I am home I have been up for several hours this morning. In the quiet of the moment I started madly going through all my digital photos...looking for dad. That ended up frustrating me more because there are not a lot. Dad was the quiet observer, often in the background of a picture. I have pictures of the back of his head, pictures half cut off, and pictures where you can barely see him in the background. When Jeff awoke, I told him I am going to make a picture book for all the grandkids called, "Where's Grandpa?" It will be similar to "Where's Waldo?" If you have pictures to contribute please email them to me. In the meantime here are a few of my favorite pictures with him actually looking at the camera. I love you pop!
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| All fancy for a baptism! |
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| Mom flipping her hair for a good picture...dad thinking "Oh Janet." |
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| The great picture...loving dad's smirk! |
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| Another great picture! Love you dad! |